Lisa-Jo (aka The Gypsy Mama) has been hosting Five Minute Fridays for weeks now, and I have yet to enter. Fear and perfectionism held me back. To just let loose and write for five minutes, and not go back and edit, was kinda tough for me. Even now my fingers are aching to go fix that word, or modify that sentence. I will not!
Lisa-Jo’s prompt of “On Waiting” coincided so wonderfully with what God was speaking to me today. That, and the image of Lisa-Jo about ready to pop with Baby #3 were both huge helps. If you have a few minutes, I would encourage you to head over to check out the other Five Minute Friday posts people have linked up. There’s a great community there, and it’s amazing the things that pour out of their brains in only five minutes.
Lately I’ve felt pregnant. No, not with a human child, but with possibility. I have dreams and plans that I hope to see fulfilled; that I feel I am in the prenatal stages of.
That dark knowing deep inside of you, of new life growing, forming and moving. At first, no one else is aware of a change. You walk around looking normal. Only those who you have shared your secret with understand the below the surface tension you’re experiencing.
There are days when it seems so overwhelming, the waiting…the wondering…the unanswered questions. Occasionally God gives me a glimpse of what He’s doing inside of me, like a spiritual sonogram. I see form and shadow, but details are blurred and questions remain.
There’s excitement in the waiting, in the unknown. He is in control. Psalms 139 says He formed us in our mother’s womb, and right now I feel like an expectant mother once again. He is forming something inside of me.
So I wait, for the time when others will begin to notice the change. For the days when the movement is so perceptible that there’s no denying the life inside. And for that final birth of dream and vision, when names are given and form is revealed.
For the waiting to be over…
Are you waiting for something?
What brings you comfort in that time?
Is there some way I can pray for you?
For those of you who offered to guest post, I am so overwhelmed and excited by your willingness to share here. Thank you!! I will send out an email with info this weekend. If you haven’t contacted me yet to let me know you are interested, the offer still stands! Just email me so I can add you to the list. The more the merrier, I say!