My computer is working again!
When I thought that it was dead I felt despair…and relief.
I’ve been praying about giving up blogging, Facebook and Twitter. There’s so much pressure to keep up. More than just putting my thoughts out there for others; social media involves commenting on others sites, responding to comments and emails, and interacting with everyone on Facebook and Twitter.
It is beginning to feel like a job, a chore, a checklist item.
Plus, it’s so emotional! I worry about what other’s think of me, if I’m good enough, how I can be better. Jealousy, fear, doubt, and depression are all part of writing for me. I know I’m not alone in this. Friend (and fellow blogger) Angela Russell @ The Coupon Project wrote a post about the emotional cost of blogging. Jenny Rain @ Rainmakers and Stormchasers wrote a fantastic post about blogging stats and how we can misunderstand what success looks like. These ladies spoke right to my heart!
So, when my computer shut down, I thought God was just being dramatic. Instead, He was forcing me to rest.
I realized things need to change. Maybe only for a season, maybe for good. I am not balancing life well.
I’ve been posting daily: to be consistent, to be disciplined, to be fresh.
I began blogging to hone my writing for outside work — freelance work. My blog has kept me from being able to pursue that; I just don’t have the time. So, I’m changing the frequency here. I’m thinking I’ll post two, maybe three times a week.
In his book, On Writing, Stephen King cautions writers, “you must not come lightly to the blank page.” In my efforts to create daily content, I have been guilty of this. And that’s not fair to you, the readers who stop by here. If you’re taking the time out of your day to read my words, I want you to come away with something worthwhile, not fluff or filler.
Which brings me to another topic…
When I spend too much time alone I think…a lot. And that thinking causes a downward spiral that can become too dark, depressive and self-deprecating.
For over a month now I have been longing to have other voices here. Not just people who have established blogs, but friends and family who have stories and ideas to share.
So…I guess I’m saying:
Do you want to write a guest post for me?
Would you be willing to share your story, your dreams, your laughs and your tears here?
I would love to have a whole month full of others, but I’ll take what I can get.
If you’re pausing, thinking, “She can’t want me to guest post” Stop! You are the exact person I want.
If you’re reading this blog, I want you to share here. So, don’t hesitate to email me, send me a message on Twitter or Facebook, or even just leave a comment below. I want community and differing perspectives.
I’m excited! Scaling back will allow me the opportunity to read more of others writing, to pursue some outside writing opportunities I’ve been putting off, and to clean my toilets.
Ok, I’m not overly excited about that last one…