As you can see, there’s been some changes around here!
Taking a break from writing posts this week gave me some time to work on redesigning my blog…something I’ve been wanting to do for a while now. I don’t really have any money to spend on this right now, but after a few days of frustration, attempts to learn CSS, and working with photoshopping pictures, I have ended up with something that feels right.
When I started blogging I really had no idea what I was doing. I actually only started my blog so I could have a place to practice writing, to build up my confidence to submit work to publications. I didn’t figure out my brand. I didn’t have a vision. It was basically an online “blank notebook” for me.
I didn’t even want people to know about it. I was embarrassed and afraid.
Now, almost two years later, I feel a little differently.
This space has become a place to connect, to share and to encourage. As I’ve written out my own struggles and experiences, I’ve discovered that I’m not alone in them. Existing relationships have been strengthened and new friendships have been forged. Lastly, I’ve found that in sharing what God is doing I’m held accountable in a way I’ve never known before.
I had originally titled this space “A Work in Progress” because I wanted everyone who visited to know that I don’t have it all together. I’m not finished, I’ll make mistakes, I’ll change my opinion, I’m in process. I still feel that all this is true, however, over the last year God has really been speaking to me about this idea of “abiding” in Him.
What I once saw as an active process has been revealed to me as a state of being.
The word “abide” in John 15:4 is the Greek word “meno.” It means: 1) to remain, abide (tarry, continue, to be held, to survive, live) and 2. to wait for, await one.
Jesus’ words in John then take on a whole new meaning to me:
Be held by me. Survive in me. Wait in me. Live in me. And I in you.
Viewing myself as “a work in progress” I felt this pressure to improve and better myself. Rather, Jesus tells me to rest in Him and wait.
Be still, and know that I am God. Psalms 46:10
As I rest in Him, continue with Him, the Holy Spirit will work in my life and I will improve and be bettered. That’s why they’re called the “Fruit of the Spirit,” not the “Fruit of Melissa’s Strivings.”
I feel like this is a better representation of where I’m at. I’m learning that it’s not about me, it’s all about Him.
So, here’s the new look.
My apartment, my head, my life are messy and cluttered. Here is a wide open, clear space to think and breath.
Take a peek around and let me know what you think.
I hope you like it, because I’ve been excited about it! :)
Now I’m off to watch Rudolph with the family!
While we’re on the topic…
What’s your favorite Christmas movie?