Turning

Transition. Change. Growth. Maturity.

Baby boy — too tall now for footie pajamas, feet dangling as we carry him to bed. This week he heads off into the great unknown of Kindergarten. Release being forced, as hands want to grip tight.

Hold on, you’re moving too fast.

Just pause for a second longer.

His impatience to be independent reminds me so much of myself.

Turning instead to One who holds us both.

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Students return to college campus, a place that is now behind us. A completion that sometimes felt impossible.

Yet he returns there as a leader; a college-age ministry in a way we never foresaw. Is ministry only in the church or is it possible to impact the lives of those you supervise?

Can he be a pastor without having the title?

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A decision looms on the horizon for me. A change in my life I don’t know that I’m ready for.

Four

children

in

six

years.

A quiver full that are now poised for flight. My life has consisted of growing, birthing, nourishing and nurturing children and now I’m looking to put a stop to it.

Regardless of the fact that one thing has nothing to do with the other, my friends who want so desperately to conceive do not leave my mind; it turns my stomach. I pray for peace, yet have none.

For now I’m waiting on the Lord.

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Yesterday I felt a change in the air.

I felt Fall.

The season is turning…

There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven –

A time to give birth and a time to die;

A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted.

A time to kill and a time to heal;

A time to tear down and a time to build up.

A time to weep and a time to laugh;

A time to mourn and a time to dance.

A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones;

A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing.

A time to search and a time to give up as lost;

A time to keep and a time to throw away.

A time to tear apart and a time to sew together;

A time to be silent and a time to speak.

A time to love and a time to hate;

A time for war and a time for peace. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

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10 thoughts on “Turning

    • I appreciate you leaving a comment! I hope you heal faster than they’re anticipating. I can’t imagine how hard it must be for you to not be able to write. At least you have a lovely new fiancé to make your life brighter. :) Congrats again!

  1. Have you read “Morning and Evening” by Spurgeon? Today’s was on this very thing: waiting on the Lord. I think you may even be able to read it online. Not sure. Anyway, wonderful post.

    • Thanks Danielle! How’s Baby Girl?! I saw some pictures and she’s beautiful. :) Hope you’re getting some rest right now. I’ll have to look up that devotional online. Thanks for letting me know about it.

    • Haha! I didn’t want to use this verse initially because I felt like it was such a cliche. Then I realized some things are a cliche for a reason. This fits perfectly with where I am right now. But, I also have the song in my head today. :) It could be worse, I could have referenced Barney…

  2. Wow, that word ‘transition’ can be such a dirty word, right? Like you said, I wait on Him and trust. That is the best thing I can possibly do. Thanks for the reminder, Melissa. Blessings…

    • Funnily enough, my husband and I view change and transition completely differently. I look at all of the positives and ancticpate it with joy. He worries and frets over the decisions. Then, once it’s over, I wonder if we made the right choice, if we’re doing the thing God wants and look back fondly. He just enjoys where we’re at. He’s a live life in the present type person and I’m a moving forward looking back. Together we’re just right. :) (BTW, loved your wife’s post today!)

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