Yesterday I took all four kids to the doctor.
Yes, I’m crazy.
With Eli starting Kindergarten in a couple of weeks and Silas turning two months on Sunday we were in need of check-ups.
Height, weight and vitals were all taken and recorded. For those interested, Silas now weighs 14.8 lbs and is 24″ long. That means in the last 6 weeks he’s grown three inches and gained 5 pounds. Can you say chunker?
Then it was shot time. I was not expecting Eli to need shots. I had told him he wouldn’t get shots.
I was wrong.
Eli needed two shots and one finger prick for a blood test. Last year when I took him to the doctor he got 6 shots. That was a somewhat traumatic day for him. Because of the sheer number of needles coming at him I told him he could get one Hot Wheel car for each shot. Good plan at the time, but it’s backfiring now.
He now thinks he gets a toy every time he gets a shot.
According to mommy’s dictionary, entitlement is being spoiled.
As we left the doctor’s office, Eli had a sucker in one hand and a sticker in the other…and he was asking me non-stop when we would go to Target to get his cars. The treats that used to make going to the doctor ok were now no longer enough. He felt like he deserved more.
As a parent I want to give my children good things. It’s fun to buy them toys and take them on vacation and make them happy. However, I’m quickly learning that they have short-term memories. They forget the ice cream they just ate as soon as they seen the balloon man at the Farmer’s Market.
I’m so grateful God doesn’t give me what I’m entitled to.
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Rom 6:23
The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. Ps 103:8-12
This year has been full of God showing me my entitlement issues.
I felt entitled to a plan.
I felt entitled to healing for my Grandma.
I felt entitled to a smooth labor and delivery according to my timeline.
Those are just the big things. I’m discovering new things everyday that I feel entitled to. Just yesterday I felt that taking all four kids to the doctor by myself entitled me to some Starbucks. I didn’t need to buy it and I probably shouldn’t have, but I felt I deserved it.
Just like my kids, I have forgotten the things God just did for me in the face of new wants and desires. Even worse, because I feel like I deserve these things I have forgotten to appreciate what I’ve already been given. The sucker and sticker are no longer enough.
Today I’m choosing to remember what I really deserve from God and to be grateful for what He’s given me instead.