The truth is,
God gives you wisdom and direction and morality and His presence and support,
and then asks you to live, to conquer, to risk and experience the whole of life.
People grow when they are in motion.
– Donald Miller
…within limits, the question What if? can radically change our story and our lives. – Donald Miller
The challenge was to come up with 5 “What if” questions for our own life. Bonnie then asked us to follow through with one of those questions and to blog about it today as part of her Faith Barista Jam.
So, what if…
- I actually trusted God with our finances instead of only turning to Him in times of need?
- we became full-time missionaries?
- I wrote a book?
- I got my Masters?
- I believed that God could use me now, instead of at some distant point when I’ve got it all figured out?
Wanna know something? This was hard for me.
I’ve always seen myself as a dreamer. In my marriage I’m the one who comes up with the crazy schemes (e.g., move to another state with a 2-year-old, six-week-old and no assurance of work or insurance?) However, I’m also very logical and knowing that I’d have to implement one of these in a weeks time made it harder.
That’s why I picked the last one to talk about today. Because I haven’t actually done anything about it. I’ve thought about it a lot and asked myself questions about it:
- How would I act differently?
- What am I holding myself back from doing?
- What does this say about my relationship with God & my view of Him?
Although there hasn’t been any tangible change in my behavior, my attitude has taken a beating.
And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. – 2 Cor. 12:9
I was under the impression that in order for God to use me I needed to have something to give; some wisdom, insight, process to impart that would enlighten others and encourage them. Here’s the problem with that…
It’s not about me.
My ministry, my life, my giftings should all point back to God.
For who regards you as superior ? What do you have that you did not receive ? And if you did receive it, why do you boast as if you had not received it? – 1 Cor. 4:7
During my senior year of high school I got a vision of myself speaking in front of a crowd. I felt that this was in response to my prayers for direction for my future, but I also dismissed it because I felt like it was really arrogant. Who was I going to speak to and what did I have to say that anyone would want to hear?
Over the last decade that image has recurred in my mind’s eye, but each time I pushed it aside as prideful and not really from Him. This last year, as I’ve discovered the joy of connecting with others through writing, I’ve dusted off that image and thought, “Maybe.” Still I felt like it was for the future, for a distant time when a wiser, more self-assured Melissa would replace the me of today.
What if it’s not? What if God could use me now, in my imperfection, when it’s even more to His glory?
Like I said, I haven’t acted on this other than to see a shift in my perspective. I don’t actually even know how to move forward in this. One major thing has happened because of this challenge though: I will no longer shrink away from opportunities that might be presented to me. Even more, I will be alert, eagerly anticipating God’s hand moving me forward in this area: writing, speaking, connecting with others…all for His glory.
What are your what ifs?
Wanna take the challenge with me?
Leave a comment below with your 5 questions,
then head over to the Faith Barista Jam & see what changes
God is doing in others as they ask themselves, “What if?”
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