Since last October I’ve been going back and forth about moving my blog over from Blogger.
First of all, I didn’t like the name I’d given it because there were things I wanted to write that had nothing to do with being a mommy. I am more than a mom and I felt stifled by the idea that what I wrote needed to somehow be about that.
Secondly, a lot of the people I follow who have blogged for longer than me said WordPress is the place to be. Now, I’ve since discovered that they meant WordPress.org and not WordPress.com, but that’s beside the point.
So…after a lot of hemming and hawing and A LOT of frustration trying to figure out WordPress…I did it!
On top of that…I went ahead and bought my own domain! Yeah me, I’m a .com.
I’m very excited about this new blog! Maybe it’s just because I like new things and this is different, shiny and untarnished. But also I feel like it’s because it’s another step for me in growing this into something.
Therein lies the question that’s been haunting me as I put in the time (and money) to move over here: What’s the point?
Those of you who know me in real life know that I love hats. Let me rephrase that: I love to buy hats. Since I was little hats have held a certain allurement for me. Someone who wears a hat is confident, stylish, put-together; at least that’s what it means to me.
So, as much as I love to buy hats, I have a hard time wearing them. I don’t want people to look at me and think, “Who does she think she is – wearing a hat.” I don’t want people to realize I’m trying. I told Josh this last night and he looked at me like I was crazy; and he’s right. But, that’s how I feel.
Those same insecurities arise here. I worry that people look at my writing and think, “She takes herself too seriously.” I started second-guessing myself and feeling embarrassed about being excited about all I’ve been working on.
Here’s the conclusion I came to…I am doing this because I enjoy it. That’s it…plain and simple. It would be fun if something grew from it in the future, but really it’s all because it makes me feel like I have a purpose beyond being a wife and mother.
I love the connection, encouragement, creativity and entertainment I get out of it. So…welcome to my new blog and to the journey that I feel God is taking me on…I hope you enjoy it because I do!
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