Five Minute Friday: New

Ahhh…Friday.

This week has been hectic, which could have influenced the direction I took for Five Minute Friday.

Five Minute Friday is hosted by Lisa-Jo.

It’s taking the prompt {new} and following it where it will go for five minutes of unedited, free writing.

Before I begin, and in the spirit of “new” I wanted to share with you some of my discoveries from this week:

  • When your mom is allergic to flowers — and you live with her — swedish fish are an excellent substitute romantic gift from your husband! Thanks, Josh!
  • My friend introduced me to the poetry of Billy Collins. I have never had much use for poetry — I’m more prosy — but I have really enjoyed his writing. If you get a chance, check him out!
  • It is usually a good idea to reapply sunscreen on your children when you have them out in the sun swimming for five hours…even if you’re in Washington, and you slathered them in SPF 50 beforehand. If you don’t, they tend to turn a little pink. Ouch.
  • Knitting groups are not just for old ladies. They can be fun, social and inspiring! Check out my newest project that I started last night!
Ok, now on to the real post…here we…

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New mom’s crack me up. They read all the literature, they know all the statistics and they think they’ve got their plan all figured out.

I was that new mom once.

Seven years ago I knew it all. Today I realize I have no clue what I’m doing.

My four children are all different, and they keep changing, which makes it all the more challenging. This one sleeps, this one wakes up — then they switch, and sometimes they all decide that eight hours of sleep is overrated {who am I kidding, I haven’t had eight hours of sleep in eight years}.

Looking back on the journey I’ve taken as a mother in the past few years, I wonder how that corresponds to my growth in other areas. And, what am I doing now that I will look back on and laugh about later?

I know I still make mistakes. I know that my philosophies and theories are flawed and skewed.

God chose me to be my children’s mother, and He’s walking me through it — step-by-step. Solely through His grace and wisdom am I capable of getting up each day and trying again. Through allowing Him to shape my words, actions, opinions and beliefs I am becoming a better mother, a better wife and a better person.

And all I can do is look at those new moms and say, “Sweetheart, it will all change — except for the fact that God is with you always.”

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Take five minutes yourself and share what “new” means to you, either here in the comments or link up yourself over at Lisa-Jo’s place

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Five Minute Friday: Whole

Today I’m linking up once again with Lisa-Jo for Five Minute Friday. She challenges us to take five minutes and write {unedited} as we will. It’s always interesting to me to compare my spontaneous reaction with others.

This week’s prompt is “whole,” and my brain seemed overrun with ways it could have gone. Of course, it always comes back to food with me. Haha!

Here we…

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Elijah making his 1st PBJ {circa 2009}

“Chicken nugs, or peanut butter sandwich?”

The clamor around the kitchen counter grows as one asks for peanut butter sandwich, open, with jam. But not blackberry jam, or strawberry jam, raspberry jam. If we don’t have raspberry jam, they want honey…and then they want it closed.

The other keeps yelling, “Mac ‘n cheese! Mac n’ cheese! Mac n’ cheese!” as if the repetition will make it one of the options. When pressed to choose between the two, the answer becomes, “Logurt,” and I give in by plopping a cup of yogurt down in front of them.

The microwave beeps, alerting me to the fact that the oh-so-nutritious shaped chicken patties are scalding hot. I will then leave them in there for another five minutes, until they have cooled to room temperature. At that point, Silas will do one of two things: eat them so quickly that I’ll search for them on the floor in disbelief, or break them into little pieces and hide them in the cracks of his high chair.

After 10 minutes of getting their meals prepared, cut up, arranged on the colored platter of their choice and filling their prefered cup, I start on my own lunch. Of course, whatever it is, they will decide that mine is better and swarm me for bites and pieces.

Someday I will get to eat my own lunch…the whole thing.

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Five Minute Friday: Still

I must begin today’s post by gloating over the fact that I got to eat dinner with the fantabulous Keri from Pop Parables last night, and meet in person the wonderful men in her life! There’s something about breaking bread together that seems to solidify a relationship, and it felt so familiar and comfortable to be sitting around chatting over a meal as our kids blasted each other with squirt guns in her backyard. This is what I love about social media! I am forever grateful to yet another great lady, Angela at The Coupon Project, for introducing us.

Ok, enough gloating…

I missed out on Five Minute Friday last week, and I truly did miss it. Today, Lisa-Jo is hosting it over at (In)Courage! So, take five minutes, ponder what “still” means to you, and let it all slip out for us to enjoy!

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The house is quiet, finally, and I can hear the ticking of the clock that’s hung on the wall since my childhood over the tapping of the computer keys. It’s strange to be back in the house of a parent, when I’m now a parent myself. There’s grace here for the give and take of parent and child. Although I have my own to raise, I’m still a daughter and remember to respect my elders.

Josh is working tomorrow, a temporary (maybe) job that requires him to be up and out by 6 AM. He hasn’t had a schedule like that for over five years. We have to adjust to a new pace of life, and for all of the changes that accompany a move. Weather, allergies, nature, family; all things that have grown unfamiliar in our time away.

We’ve been worried, just a little, as our plans remain uncertain and our financial cushion dwindles. Our faith becoming more an act of will than a bold declaration inspired by feelings. That’s ok though, God is good through it all and His actions are not dependent on our feelings. 

For now, my mind finds a sense of peace, settling around the thought as the house settles around me…

He is God still.

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Five Minute Friday: Loss

Words have been hard to come by for me this week. As Josh and I prepared for our move, we talked about how differently we process change. He experiences the emotions prior to the change — the fear, grief, elation and anticipation — whereas I deal with it all once the change has occurred. These last couple of days have been difficult. For weeks I have been numb, going through the motions of saying goodbye and hello without any of the accompanying feelings. That is over, and I am currently slogging through it all…

…as you can see from my response to Lisa-Jo’s Five Minute Friday prompt: loss.

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Moving seems like dying to me. As I experience the loss of my grandma, I was amazed at how quickly life moved on without her. Yes, there was a mourning process, and I longed for her to come back. My kids still needed to be fed, though. Babies were born, people were married, groceries were bought; the mundane and the epic still occurred without her.

Life moves on in our old home without us. And for us, in this new place, we still need to do laundry and cook meals. It’s all just done in a new location.

Ezra won’t say goodnight to my mom. Each night we tell him to give her a kiss and say goodnight, and he says no. During the day he’s fine with her, it’s just that nighttime routine that he won’t budge on. He insists that this is not his house — and he’s right. This is not our home, it is my mom and step dad’s home which they have so graciously opened to us for our transitional period.

He feels a loss. What was normal is gone, and he’s set adrift in the unknown.

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After a sporadic couple of weeks, I plan on returning to a more normal level of consistency around here next Monday. Have a great weekend!!

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